soliloquy

Can you see the light in the darkness?
Can you hear the voice of silence?

Keep the faith.
Hold on to hope.


eyes
eyes

Welcome To The Black Parade

- My Chemical Romance

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.

He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the savior of the broken,
the beaten and the damned?"
He said "Will you defeat them,
your demons, and all the non-believers,
the plans that they have made?"
"Because one day I'll leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join The Black Parade."

Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.
And other times I feel like I should go.
And through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.
And when you're gone we want you all to know.

We'll carry on,
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I can't contain it
The anthem won't explain it.

A world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all.
So paint it black and take it back
Let's shout it loud and clear
Defiant to the end we hear the call

To carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches

On and on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers
Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause I could not care at all

Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
I won't explain or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer for all the broken
Listen here, because it's who we are
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who had to sing this song
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
I! don't! care!

We'll carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches on

Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)
Do or die, you'll never make me (We'll carry on)
Because the world will never take my heart (We'll carry on)
Go and try, you'll never break me (We'll carry)
We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)

Love it so so so so much~

MCR

the strawberry milkshake

躺在紅色大樹
那有點單薄的枝幹上
耳朵忽然有點癢，好睏
我打個呵欠便掉了下來，掉進
你手中的strawberry milkshake，溶化
成一段電影情節
不太荷里活的
不關於天台的
大概是某個午後
床上一段沒有對白的對話
或是沒有對話的對白
淡黃色的窗簾在陽光下飄揚
微麈飛舞，如水的嗓子
在細小的房間裡流動
滲進毛孔，好睏
我打個呵欠便倒下來，倒在
你的懷裡，打翻了
你手中的strawberry milkshake

(Music: Closer/ The Boy with No Name/ Travis)

幻聽樹

《金魚和月亮》可洛

已經很夜了你知道嗎
寧靜纏著電話線打圈
我們都看不見對方的眼睛你的眼睛
好濃的夜的氣息我們像魚一般游動
並不靠緊對方你知道嗎夜的來源
那天跟你走過馬路很窄的馬路你走得好慢
半個月亮在橙藍交接的天空潛行
車輛和行人匆匆而過
湧到屬於我們的沉默的夜晚
夏天還沒有來啊你忽然悲傷
一尾金魚在家裡經歷了兩個春天
最後一次隔著玻璃看牠牠搶著魚糧
水草擺動牠的影子漸漸下沉
碎滿在七彩石卵的缸底
你總是在樹影的網子裡穿梭
有幾次離開了我的視線我們就這樣分開了
我們就這樣分開寧靜纏擾著我們
多年之後在流動的街景中流動流動流動
你的形像乍現然後一下子又消失
是啊那年多雨而且剛好是擁有新畫板的一年
雨濕和晴朗不住交替夏天於是流走或曬乾
電風扇在轉動我們在轉動方向混亂
月亮轉入了缸底金魚轉到了一排街燈的盡頭
尾鰭像季節輕擺水流逝的形狀
我花了三天描畫後來才發現
那不過是你頭髮的曲線
於是我們就這樣分開了


喜歡帶一本詩集上街，在地鐵的車程裡，隨意翻一首來讀，像推開一扇窗看霧裡的風景。好的詩集，總是讀不完的，可洛的《幻聽樹》如此讀了一個月。
這一首，已經忘了讀過幾次，那天在車上翻著，突然碰上了詩的綿綿，唸下去，意象在腦海裡躍現，仿如錄像播放著一首娓娓的分手之歌。時日流逝，再痛的傷口最終也會結成一度淺淺的疤痕，舊人換新人，然後我們繼續「流動流動流動」。因為有了這首詩，一切都顯得不那麼沉重了。

想起《十二夜》。又想起古巨基的一首歌。

多麼美麗終消逝 誰人值得以約誓去狠狠記低
多麼結實的關係 回頭像摔破約櫃碎得多徹低
那個會愛著誰一世
就像恨誰又怎會恨到底
只得嘆謂深不見底
世界那麼細 那有這種氣勢

不懂得介紹，我只能衷心地說，我很喜歡這詩集。


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for you and for me

28 May 07/ to W/ 不要太責怪自己，人總有軟弱的時候，但不要軟弱太久，因為軟弱的時間越久，要站起來的時候便越難。我便是一個人辦。無論如何，我都會支持你的。加油。

Apocalypto

(一)
And a Man sat alone, drenched deep in sadness.
And all the animals drew near to him and said, "We do not like to see you so sad. Ask us for whatever you wish and you shall have it."
The Man said, "I want to have good sight."
The vulture replied, "You shall have mine."
The Man said, "I want to be strong."
The jaguar said, "You shall be strong like me."
Then the Man said, "I long to know the secrets of the earth."
The serpent replied, "I will show them to you."
And so it went with all the animals.
And when the Man had all the gifts that they could give, he left.
Then the owl said to the other animals, "Now the Man knows much, he'll be able to do many things. Suddenly I am afraid." The deer said, "The Man has all that he needs. Now his sadness will stop."
But the owl replied, "No. I saw a hole in the Man, deep like a hunger he will never fill. It is what makes him sad and what makes him want. He will go on taking and taking, until one day the World will say, 'I am no more and I have nothing left to give.'"


(二)
換了年代，換了場景，換了形式，廝殺並沒停止過。
沒有悲傷的必要，沒有恐懼的必要。
拿起武器去保衛自己、保衛所愛的人吧。

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The Painted Veil

"When love and duty are one, grace is within you."

無題

你的沉默
滑落在
咖啡倒影的臉上
我拿起小勺
攪拌
溶化成
對坐的詩
我拿起杯
淺淺嘗一口
花的味道

(Music: Yumeji's Theme from OST - In the Mood of Love)

親愛的，我會學著堅強快樂

喜歡聽悲傷的歌曲
習慣在電影院流淚
你總笑說我要集齊一套
詩人的憂鬱
那些戒不掉的癮
什麼是愛﹖
很多次，我總是忘了又問
只記著了
你那淺淺的微笑

緩慢與沉靜原來是一種藥
專治我的浮躁和孩子氣
包容與鼓勵是一雙手
領我在幽谷裡前行
而你的微笑，最後
沉澱成顆顆珍珠
被掛在我的頸上
那個初夏的夜晚
我收到
世上最美的信物

親愛的，我會學著堅強快樂
用來換領你給我的幸福

支持原地保留皇后碼頭

昨天看新聞，聽到古物古蹟諮詢委員會有條友說皇后碼頭沒什麼歷史價值，不過是殖民地統治者上船下船的地方，我對住電視機喊了一聲「痴線」，那個低能兒實在把我惹火了。

天星碼頭和皇后碼頭的存廢風波，反映香港回歸以來的一個重大變化：港人對身分認同的強烈追求和尋根意識的興起。如能善於引導，可以將香港在殖民地時代那種「借來的時間、借來的地方」的過客心態，改變為「落地生根、以港為家」的主人翁心態，這種對香港的歸屬感和認同感，絕非金錢所能比擬，對建設新香港，和培育治港人才都是非常有利的，為政者應該好好珍惜和愛護，而非打壓或迴避……

民間保育團體堅持，皇后碼頭和皇后像廣場和大會堂組成的整個建築群，鑲嵌著香港殖民地歷史，定義著港人的歷史身分。當年設計大會堂的英國建築師Ron Phillips亦指出，當年設計大會堂時，皇后碼頭已存在，他將皇后碼頭、愛丁堡廣場和大會堂作三位一體的建築群設計。將碼頭清拆及移至另一地點重置，會令這組建築群失去歷史意義。

節錄5月10日明報社評

皇后碼頭的歷史價值我也懶得去爭論，我卻想知道，幾十年來，由電車路一直填到現在的IFC，你/我/他們怎麼可以如此貪得無厭﹖我總是隱隱感覺到，人類對金錢和物質的崇拜正慢慢把自己推向滅亡的邊緣。

我沒好氣，當初碼頭建立的時候，就是用來彰顯殖民統治者的權力，今日要拆，不過是一種宿命。這一場反抗大概會跟建築物一併成為時代的回憶，建立與拆卸、反抗與屈服的象徵和意義最終也會在回憶的荒漠裡化成渺渺的塵土。

孤草；支持原地保留皇后碼頭
可洛：皇后碼頭(圖像詩)

(今期字花有可洛跟孤草的筆談〈創作（及旅行）的意義〉。很期待﹗下星期忙完這temp job便去買來讀。)

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