6.28.2007

走進窄門

可洛兄:

寫作就是這樣奇妙,從狹窄開始往往寫出寬廣,從寬廣開始往往寫出狹窄。這和人生一模一樣,從一條寬廣大路出發的人常常走投無路,從一條羊腸小道出發的人卻能夠走到遙遠的天邊。所以耶穌說:「你們要走窄門。」他告誡我們,「因為引到滅亡,那門是寬的,路是大的,去的人也多。引到永生,那門是窄的,路是小的,找著的人也少。」 我想無論是寫作還是人生,正確的出發都是走進窄門。不要被寬闊的大門所迷惑,那裡面的路沒有多長。

-- 余華 

席間提到的一段話,摘自《兄弟》的後記,余華所引的經文來自馬太福音(7:13-14)。
加油啊﹗朝著你的目標進發吧﹗相信自己,信靠神﹗走窄門真的不易,同路的人少,有時候也會迷惑,有時候會想到放棄,有時候會走錯了路,但只有堅持到底,才能無憾﹗我也會為自己的目標奮鬥﹗

讀你的日記,想起05年寫的這首詩。

點點

《地下物語》
20050319

嘟嘟 嘟 嘟嘟嘟 嘟嘟
越過旋轉欄後羊一頭接一頭
擠上輸送帶變成罐頭
卡車到達前程式員
將八十首歌播放三次
然後為罐頭貼上適當的廣告招紙
系統運作得近乎完美
傳說中的牧羊人於是
正式被取代

(他們在暗黑中)
(各自開一扇窗)
(看得見澳洲的黎明)
(卻無法觸摸任何一隻羊)
(想念,他們說)

我想跟失業的牧羊人逃走

唧 唧 唧唧唧 唧唧
老嫗卡住在唱碟盤上
連同手拉車和兩袋文件
舞池上的人並沒有注意到
節奏的突然變化
吸食麻煙後的一般反應
高潮被拉成直線
便沒有人懷疑音樂

我們走過兒童想像的世界
兩邊壁畫黑白得色彩斑斕
老嫗拉著手拉車
我提著其中一袋文件跟在後面
那通向商業大廈的蜿蜒的地底長走廊
鞋跟敲擊著蜷曲的脊骨
不好意思,老嫗說了一共十九遍
十九遍,是罪,是罪
嘟 嘟 嘟 嘟 嘟 嘟 嘟
違反第七百一十九條附例

我已準備跟牧羊人逃走

點點

知音難求,願路上共勉。

6.19.2007

soliloquy

Can you see the light in the darkness?
Can you hear the voice of silence?

Keep the faith.
Hold on to hope.


eyes
eyes

6.09.2007

Welcome To The Black Parade




- My Chemical Romance

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.

He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the savior of the broken,
the beaten and the damned?"
He said "Will you defeat them,
your demons, and all the non-believers,
the plans that they have made?"
"Because one day I'll leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join The Black Parade."

Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.
And other times I feel like I should go.
And through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.
And when you're gone we want you all to know.

We'll carry on,
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I can't contain it
The anthem won't explain it.

A world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all.
So paint it black and take it back
Let's shout it loud and clear
Defiant to the end we hear the call

To carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches

On and on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers
Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause I could not care at all

Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
I won't explain or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer for all the broken
Listen here, because it's who we are
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who had to sing this song
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
I! don't! care!

We'll carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches on

Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)
Do or die, you'll never make me (We'll carry on)
Because the world will never take my heart (We'll carry on)
Go and try, you'll never break me (We'll carry)
We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)

Love it so so so so much~

MCR

6.08.2007

the strawberry milkshake




躺在紅色大樹
那有點單薄的枝幹上
耳朵忽然有點癢,好睏
我打個呵欠便掉了下來,掉進
你手中的strawberry milkshake,溶化
成一段電影情節
不太荷里活的
不關於天台的
大概是某個午後
床上一段沒有對白的對話
或是沒有對話的對白
淡黃色的窗簾在陽光下飄揚
微麈飛舞,如水的嗓子
在細小的房間裡流動
滲進毛孔,好睏
我打個呵欠便倒下來,倒在
你的懷裡,打翻了
你手中的strawberry milkshake

(Music: Closer/ The Boy with No Name/ Travis)