believe or not?

我想捉著你的手說：一切會好的。會好的。
親愛的，我會一直為你們祈禱的。
你們，每一個，不要再見你們受傷害，也不要再見你們傷害自己。
都會好起來的，真的，我相信。

《没有命名的房间》 陈维个展
展览时间： 2007.7. 8 - 2007. 8. 13
展览地点：站台中国798项目空间 (北京)
http://www.platformchina.org/

小四，由衷替你高興﹗繼續努力﹗

Cherry: You a doctor?
Dr. Dakota Block: Hm. I was earlier tonight.
Cherry: I always wanted to be a doctor, instead, I can do this. Useless talent number 66. I'm very pliable.
Dr. Dakota Block: You know my girlfriend had a theory, she said that you find a use for every useless talent you ever had.
Cherry: I'm not that optimistic. I feel like I'm stuck a drain and I can't get out.
Dr. Dakota Block: [Interrupts Cherry] She'd say, "when you're stuck in that spiral, just reach up".
Cherry: What if there's nothing up there?
Dr. Dakota Block: Just reach up.
The Rapist: [Comes in] You're a dancer.
Cherry: I was earlier tonight.
The Rapist: Well I'm pulling you out of retirement!

planet terror

走進窄門

可洛兄：

寫作就是這樣奇妙，從狹窄開始往往寫出寬廣，從寬廣開始往往寫出狹窄。這和人生一模一樣，從一條寬廣大路出發的人常常走投無路，從一條羊腸小道出發的人卻能夠走到遙遠的天邊。所以耶穌說:「你們要走窄門。」他告誡我們，「因為引到滅亡，那門是寬的，路是大的，去的人也多。引到永生，那門是窄的，路是小的，找著的人也少。」 我想無論是寫作還是人生，正確的出發都是走進窄門。不要被寬闊的大門所迷惑，那裡面的路沒有多長。

－－　余華　

席間提到的一段話，摘自《兄弟》的後記，余華所引的經文來自馬太福音(7:13-14)。
加油啊﹗朝著你的目標進發吧﹗相信自己，信靠神﹗走窄門真的不易，同路的人少，有時候也會迷惑，有時候會想到放棄，有時候會走錯了路，但只有堅持到底，才能無憾﹗我也會為自己的目標奮鬥﹗

讀你的日記，想起05年寫的這首詩。

點點

《地下物語》
20050319

嘟嘟　嘟　嘟嘟嘟　嘟嘟
越過旋轉欄後羊一頭接一頭
擠上輸送帶變成罐頭
卡車到達前程式員
將八十首歌播放三次
然後為罐頭貼上適當的廣告招紙
系統運作得近乎完美
傳說中的牧羊人於是
正式被取代

(他們在暗黑中)
(各自開一扇窗)
(看得見澳洲的黎明)
(卻無法觸摸任何一隻羊)
(想念，他們說)

我想跟失業的牧羊人逃走

唧　唧　唧唧唧　唧唧
老嫗卡住在唱碟盤上
連同手拉車和兩袋文件
舞池上的人並沒有注意到
節奏的突然變化
吸食麻煙後的一般反應
高潮被拉成直線
便沒有人懷疑音樂

我們走過兒童想像的世界
兩邊壁畫黑白得色彩斑斕
老嫗拉著手拉車
我提著其中一袋文件跟在後面
那通向商業大廈的蜿蜒的地底長走廊
鞋跟敲擊著蜷曲的脊骨
不好意思，老嫗說了一共十九遍
十九遍，是罪，是罪
嘟　嘟　嘟　嘟　嘟　嘟　嘟
違反第七百一十九條附例

我已準備跟牧羊人逃走

點點

知音難求，願路上共勉。

soliloquy

Can you see the light in the darkness?
Can you hear the voice of silence?

Keep the faith.
Hold on to hope.


eyes
eyes

Welcome To The Black Parade

- My Chemical Romance

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.

He said, "Son when you grow up,
would you be the savior of the broken,
the beaten and the damned?"
He said "Will you defeat them,
your demons, and all the non-believers,
the plans that they have made?"
"Because one day I'll leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join The Black Parade."

Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.
And other times I feel like I should go.
And through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.
And when you're gone we want you all to know.

We'll carry on,
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I can't contain it
The anthem won't explain it.

A world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all.
So paint it black and take it back
Let's shout it loud and clear
Defiant to the end we hear the call

To carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches

On and on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers
Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause I could not care at all

Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
I won't explain or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer for all the broken
Listen here, because it's who we are
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who had to sing this song
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
I! don't! care!

We'll carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches on

Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)
Do or die, you'll never make me (We'll carry on)
Because the world will never take my heart (We'll carry on)
Go and try, you'll never break me (We'll carry)
We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)

Love it so so so so much~

MCR

the strawberry milkshake

躺在紅色大樹
那有點單薄的枝幹上
耳朵忽然有點癢，好睏
我打個呵欠便掉了下來，掉進
你手中的strawberry milkshake，溶化
成一段電影情節
不太荷里活的
不關於天台的
大概是某個午後
床上一段沒有對白的對話
或是沒有對話的對白
淡黃色的窗簾在陽光下飄揚
微麈飛舞，如水的嗓子
在細小的房間裡流動
滲進毛孔，好睏
我打個呵欠便倒下來，倒在
你的懷裡，打翻了
你手中的strawberry milkshake

(Music: Closer/ The Boy with No Name/ Travis)

幻聽樹

《金魚和月亮》可洛

已經很夜了你知道嗎
寧靜纏著電話線打圈
我們都看不見對方的眼睛你的眼睛
好濃的夜的氣息我們像魚一般游動
並不靠緊對方你知道嗎夜的來源
那天跟你走過馬路很窄的馬路你走得好慢
半個月亮在橙藍交接的天空潛行
車輛和行人匆匆而過
湧到屬於我們的沉默的夜晚
夏天還沒有來啊你忽然悲傷
一尾金魚在家裡經歷了兩個春天
最後一次隔著玻璃看牠牠搶著魚糧
水草擺動牠的影子漸漸下沉
碎滿在七彩石卵的缸底
你總是在樹影的網子裡穿梭
有幾次離開了我的視線我們就這樣分開了
我們就這樣分開寧靜纏擾著我們
多年之後在流動的街景中流動流動流動
你的形像乍現然後一下子又消失
是啊那年多雨而且剛好是擁有新畫板的一年
雨濕和晴朗不住交替夏天於是流走或曬乾
電風扇在轉動我們在轉動方向混亂
月亮轉入了缸底金魚轉到了一排街燈的盡頭
尾鰭像季節輕擺水流逝的形狀
我花了三天描畫後來才發現
那不過是你頭髮的曲線
於是我們就這樣分開了


喜歡帶一本詩集上街，在地鐵的車程裡，隨意翻一首來讀，像推開一扇窗看霧裡的風景。好的詩集，總是讀不完的，可洛的《幻聽樹》如此讀了一個月。
這一首，已經忘了讀過幾次，那天在車上翻著，突然碰上了詩的綿綿，唸下去，意象在腦海裡躍現，仿如錄像播放著一首娓娓的分手之歌。時日流逝，再痛的傷口最終也會結成一度淺淺的疤痕，舊人換新人，然後我們繼續「流動流動流動」。因為有了這首詩，一切都顯得不那麼沉重了。

想起《十二夜》。又想起古巨基的一首歌。

多麼美麗終消逝 誰人值得以約誓去狠狠記低
多麼結實的關係 回頭像摔破約櫃碎得多徹低
那個會愛著誰一世
就像恨誰又怎會恨到底
只得嘆謂深不見底
世界那麼細 那有這種氣勢

不懂得介紹，我只能衷心地說，我很喜歡這詩集。


點

for you and for me

28 May 07/ to W/ 不要太責怪自己，人總有軟弱的時候，但不要軟弱太久，因為軟弱的時間越久，要站起來的時候便越難。我便是一個人辦。無論如何，我都會支持你的。加油。

Apocalypto

(一)
And a Man sat alone, drenched deep in sadness.
And all the animals drew near to him and said, "We do not like to see you so sad. Ask us for whatever you wish and you shall have it."
The Man said, "I want to have good sight."
The vulture replied, "You shall have mine."
The Man said, "I want to be strong."
The jaguar said, "You shall be strong like me."
Then the Man said, "I long to know the secrets of the earth."
The serpent replied, "I will show them to you."
And so it went with all the animals.
And when the Man had all the gifts that they could give, he left.
Then the owl said to the other animals, "Now the Man knows much, he'll be able to do many things. Suddenly I am afraid." The deer said, "The Man has all that he needs. Now his sadness will stop."
But the owl replied, "No. I saw a hole in the Man, deep like a hunger he will never fill. It is what makes him sad and what makes him want. He will go on taking and taking, until one day the World will say, 'I am no more and I have nothing left to give.'"


(二)
換了年代，換了場景，換了形式，廝殺並沒停止過。
沒有悲傷的必要，沒有恐懼的必要。
拿起武器去保衛自己、保衛所愛的人吧。

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